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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I AM...

i think i might be autistic, 28 out of 33 noted behavior of autism.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Untitled #3 (uncertain maybe)

The semester is coming to an end. Work is done, almost. Seems like I learned something amidst all these bittersweet moments. But to put it in words, I'm not too sure that I've learned anything at all. Things that I wish can be undone, yet sometimes feeling that it's not hard enough to express what I really feel. Having this feeling that... I'm getting back to... normal. Normal as in the consciousness of fear, love, hate, and commitment, which are the absence of what I am before this working experience begins.

Of Fear, now I've become afraid of authority (getting tired of pissing everyone else all the time).

Of Love, realising that my passion is still with arts and music.

Of Hate, of what people have made of this world lately, and the kinda world that we're leaving on to the next generation.

Of Commitment, responsibility of my character and everything that revolve around it.

Friday, August 04, 2006


Skema jokes are always the best to start a conversation, like 'yo mama jokes, fruit jokes, animal jokes or ... well... ya got the point... so... I'm planning to start one... hmmm... I'll call it the joy chan joke... hopefully it'll catch up so that I can hear it in some mamak while gulping down my teh ais in due time... hahaha

Joy Chan's work is so stupid, the government included it in the national service training.
Joy Chan's work is so stupid, people thought it's a collection of jokes when they read the company's resume.
Joy Chan's work is so stupid, a gerbill came highly recommended when they were looking for a managing executive.
Joy Chan's work is so stupid, that it's mandatory to take the retard pill before you enter the company premises.

usually by now my conscience will take over and tell me how i could offended some people here... but then again... if I dun let it out here... where else can I go to?

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Buy Me A New Life

Instead of fighting binary...

Fighting gravity seems more appealing...

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Anticipated Albums of 2006

Looking forward for these albums in 2006:

1. Angels and Airwaves - We Don't Need to Whisper

2. Taking Back Sunday - Louder Now
3. Brand New - Fight Off Your Demons
4. Dashboard Confessional - TBA
5. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Stadium Arcadium
6. John Mayer - Continuum
7. Smashing Pumpkins - TBA
(so far only Billy Corgan and the drummer Jimmy Chamberlin confirmed the reunion)

Other bands with albums coming out in 2006:
Good Charlotte
Linkin Park
The Offspring
Snow Patrol

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Four Walls

Verse 1

Waking up to these four walls again,

Lie awake with this thought in my head,

Is losing love always part of the plan?

I drift apart...

Grab my keys and I drive to my friend's,

Among the crowds there's these four walls again.

I'm told there's something beautiful out there.

I'm stepping out...


Away from these four walls

Away from this illusion

Into Your field of grace


You're all I want

You're all I need

It doesn't matter where the four walls are

Cause everything's better with You

Verse 2

In the room with a candle in my hand,

The shadow proves that I'm still in Your hand,

I'm not scare cause I know You will be there,

I'm stepping in...




This is our debut song for the Monkey's Uncle band.
Haha... simple song... sounds emo tho... it seems that our guitarist is always up with emo riff in his head... hmm... mayb we should have a heavy distorted version to pull our reputation back as a garage-punk band... haha

It's kinda like a story... or at least I thought of it that way when I wrote the lyrics... typical day... wake up, dine in with friends, back to your room...

Seems like it’s talking about emptiness or yearning for the touch of love from God… but it’s not that emotional or desperate. It’s more like a wake up song to bounce back after you have taken a step back from God… or the people around you…

Is losing love always part of the plan? That’s kinda hard to tell what it really meant, but what I’m trying to say is that, when God took away something that has significant meaning to you, is it really necessary? This is the doubt which drives us to take a step back in the first place. And that’s when people distanced themselves away from the crowd, and also God.

Even when you’ve so-called “distanced” yourself, you would still have to meet up with friends, or socialize… in a sense… but yet everywhere you go, even among the waves of crowds, all you see is just the four walls that binds you in where ever you are. And you thought you’re being confined.

So you cried out to the Lord, saying that you’re in need to His grace, to break free from the four walls. And you thought everything would be better when God’s presence is felt. But you’ve missed one thing from all these…

Now back in your room… all by yourself… you don’t wanna switch on the light, cause when every corner is being lit up… you’ll get scared of having such clear border of what you have. So you light up a candle instead… you turn around and there’s the shadow of yours on the wall… that’s when you realize… your short-coming is a cast off in His presence… it makes you ponder on His process of molding – to take something precious to you, just so you can focus on Him, to see His work, not just in you, but in all those around you as well. The loneliness and emptiness assured that He is always there with you cause that is exactly what He needed you to fell. So once again… you step back into the four walls…

By now… the four walls is a shelter to keep you safe. Cause God doesn’t wanna lock you in… but to lock the enemy out… the illusion of confinement is no more… and you’re being secured in His watchful eyes.

The world out there is just another place with larger four walls. It doesn’t matter where the four walls is cause… even in the smallest space, His presence is there as well… His work is there… it is in everything that is in between the four walls, in every people around you, in every space between these people that binds them together, and in every air that you breathe to sustain your life. If you see passed all these, then all you’ll ever see… is only the four walls…

Song writting is fun... :D

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Our Breathing Is Getting Way Too Loud

People seeks attention. Or at least that's what a normal person would do. But sometimes it does get a lil overboard...

Seeking attention is not a bad thing though, people are beings that need attention, even while they're sucking on their pacifier they still cry out for attention... literally... hahaha

But a lil decency would make it more appealing.

Maybe people just wanna prove their existance... thru the things they've done or are doing... everything single thing... perhaps one day someone would just show up in front of you proving that they're just... breathing